Why do I even bother.

I shouldn't like him. I mean honestly why would he pay attention to me? There's so many other girls that are prettier than me. So why would he pay special attention to me.

*sigh*

I wish he would though. No. I can't say that. Just because he wanted a hug from me today doesn't mean anything. He gives other girls hugs too. Hugs don't mean that you're interested in someone. He only sees me as a friend. I don't have to second guess that. I know for a fact he'll never like me. I should just not get my hopes up again. I don't want to go on crying about a stupid boy problem again.

Reality check Fabiola. He will never like you.

I don't want to relive the same thing over again.

I don't want to like him because I know it's going to be pointless and I'm just going to be wasting my time. I am trying really hard not to think about him or get feelings toward him because I know he doesn't feel the same way about me regardless what my friend says. I'm just going to end up thinking things he says means he likes me and stuff just like the other guys. I can't afford to waste my time on another guy unless I'm positive he likes me back.