I wish I was satisfied with my weight once and for all.

I wish I didn't have problems with my weight. I wish I could look in the mirror and think I looked good, but I never really got up to that point. I know I've lost a good amount of weight, but I know it's not enough to make me feel happy and pretty about myself when I'm going out. I want to be able to go out and feel confident in the way I look and how clothes look on me. I don't want to walk around with my head down fearing to make eye contact with someone. All I want is to be a size 1. Hell, at this rate, I'd wish I'd be a size 3 right now. Who knew going down two sizes would be so hard..
I just pray to God I'm able to fit in size 1 jeans by summer. I've always said I wanted to lose weight by summer, and I haven't really achieved the goal I set myself. I want to finally be comfortable when I go to the beach this summer. I don't want to feel like a whale compared to everyone. I need to lose at least 20 pounds. I really hope I can do this. It is possible, but I just hope I can stick to my goal for once.

How soon is too soon?

I just wan't to say how I hate the fact that so many teens are having kids at this age. I seriously have no clue what is going through their heads, nor will I, but all I know is that it is the most ignorant mistake. How hard is it to use protection? I hate how they are thinking "We've only had sex once without protection, but the other times we always use protection." Why on earth wouldn't you use protection that one time? Were you that lazy? You're lazy to protect yourself from becoming a future parent? I don't care if you're "caught up in the moment". That is no excuse to not have the common sense in things like this. I found out someone I talk to is pregnant. I am shocked. I can't believe her. "One thing led to another and you know what happens." Bullshit. You know what you were doing and you could have had the control, but instead you set your worries in the back of your mind and you ignored them. I honestly feel bad for her because I know she is going to have a rough time. I also can't believe some people are excited she is going to have a baby. I know it's wrong to not be supportive about this, but why would you be happy she is having a baby? She is 16 years old damn it. She is not ready to carry around this child with her. I just don't know what to say to her. I mean I can't say "Congratulations!" That is wrong to encourage what she has done. That is like saying "Hey girl, you didn't have protected sex? Awesome!" I can only say I will now witness before my eyes what is going to happen in the following months.

Hello again.

I haven't been using blogger for over a year now. I decided I would get another blog only because I feel the stuff I posted before was just jibberish of what was going on in my mind and heart. In this blog I will write about my feelings about certain topics and what is going on in my life, including life at school.